“Trust the magic of new beginnings.”
Have you ever felt stuck? Like everyone and everything in your life is going wrong? Everything you say people take the wrong way? Every thought you have gets shut down? People constantly trying to steal your happiness? Welcome to my life for the past year…
Up until last year I was a happy, easy going, positive gal just trying to live life to its fullest. I was the positive influence in every negative situation. I would preach life is too short and I would laugh the small stuff off. I lived to make everyone around me happy. Life was good. It was really good… But that me is gone. And I hate it -with a passion. I’ve never let others get to me like I have this past year. I let them get in my head and control my feelings -and it’s the worst feeling in the world.
I never thought in a million years I would be feeling the way I feel today. I always had a positive outlook on life. I laughed at everything and anything. I didn’t take life too seriously. I was so happy. And then life happened, things changed and reality set in – and I was faced with the harsh truth of just how ugly people can be. It’s actually quite sad how mean-hearted some people are in this world. People who you cared about and thought they cared about you. It’s something that will always sting.
I am the first one to give you the shirt off of my back. I was raised that way -always help others, always. And I love that. I love giving without expecting. It makes me happy to see others happy. But this year my happiness was stripped away from me. And I allowed it. And I’m so mad at myself for wasting all of my energy trying to change certain people. It hasn’t gotten me anywhere other than bring anger and hatred to my life.
If I learned anything over the last year its people are selfish. They will do whatever it takes to make you miserable. And it’s a sad realization I have come to. I let people who I thought were friends, and even family, destroy me. I lost my happiness, I lost my positive outlook on life. I lost it all. These people made me bitter, and angry, and mad at the world.
But I am no longer going to allow people to control my happiness. Only I can dictate what makes me happy. And I choose to rise above the ugly, small-minded, selfish people of the world. Because life is too short to worry. I want to wake up each and every morning happy and ready for the day. Life is a gift, and I want to start enjoying it again.
Even though it took me a year to realize, I am ready to be me again. I’m ready to stand up for myself when no one else will. I’m ready to put myself first and live for me. 2019 is going to be my year, I just know it. Today is the beginning of the rest of my life, and I am so excited for what’s in store in the coming months.
I wish everyone health, happiness and a tremendous love for life. You only get one. Let’s make the best of it. Who’s with me?
Happy February xo –